Game. On.
I sit down with my sand encrusted notebook. In the light you can see the shimmer of salt. It has been kissed by the ocean more than once.
Old worries about paper are gone. This thing stays nestled in the table beside my bed. I bring it outside almost every day.
So many changes have happened in the past year. Things I couldn't have dreamed are now my new normal.
The shift makes some things easier. Some things harder.
“It’s good to do hard things,” I tell my kids.
And then set out to live it.
We have not one, not two, but five people now detoxing.
At the same time.
Power curve management is vital for each one and so I watch, note how each is doing, and plan around it.
What I find interesting with each new level of detox, each new “flavor” as my husband calls it, is that I can simultaneously struggle with the war and yet have gains. It is a fascinating thing.
More and more I wonder what is actually possible. More and more the status quo is not enough.
You may call it greed. I’m not sure that’s it.
I think instead of the parable of the talents.
To whom much is given, much is required.
I have been given much.
I’m expected to turn a profit.
I want to go further. I am grateful for where I am and yet ever straining for more.
What do I want?
I’m glad you asked.
I don’t want to just walk, I want to run.
I don’t simply want to run, I want to run a marathon.
I don't merely want to be healthy, I want to be an athlete.
Give me a list of things that terrify me and I want to do every single one of them.
I want to look my fear in the face and tell it that it does not own me anymore.
And so I back track.
What is the most foundational thing that I need to do?
Walk. A lot. More than I think I can.
And so I started.
In the past 3 days I have walked 14.50 miles.
Next? Rebuild hips and lower back from my illness. This is important work.
If there’s anything I have learned from this journey it is that when I get really good at the fundamentals, a whole world of opportunity opens to me.
So much of what I have accomplished thus far has been by listening to my body.
But there is a point where, if I want to hit my goals, I must push past what I believe myself capable of.
That's where I am.
I made a deal with myself. If I feel I need to rest, I will……
Only after I have tried several things.
Yesterday I was tired. I wasn't sure I was up for my beach walk. But I was determined to try. I came down to the beach and started walking. Within a short time I was running.
If I feel I need a nap, I lay on the beach to take it.
Every day is an opportunity.
Every morning I ask the Lord to help me take full advantage of it.
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